For those of you who want to hear my journey...keep reading. If you're just looking for a BOY/GIRL notice, keep scrolling. :D
Last Tuesday, we went in for our anatomy scan (18 weeks). They took lots of measurements and then tried to find baby's gender. But baby was all locked up tight. Hands crossed behind the head, legs criss-crossed, and on top of that, baby didn't seem to want to move for ANYTHING.
Despite this little glitch in the plan, it was still absolutely incredible to see this baby and hear the heartbeat again. The cute little profile pictures are my favorite, where baby stuck up that little round tummy lots of times.
What to expect when you're expecting: Things don't go the way you plan. That baby has its own time line and its own comfort levels. Nothing you do can change that, and stressing about it only makes it worse. The night before last Tuesday, I had it in my head that the crib HAD to be put together before we went to have this ultrasound. Talk about irrational, and just an added level of stress! Thank goodness for a wonderful supportive and loving husband who does everything he can to help me calm down.
On top of not finding out the gender when I was expecting to, the ultrasound tech made a note about possibly seeing a tiny fluid bubble on the brain, which the nurse practitioner told us was likely nothing to be concerned about based on the other anatomical measurements. So we were told we'd be sent to a parinatologist to have a more in depth anatomy scan to get the measurements they missed due to baby's position this first time (fingers, toes, hands, feet mostly).
Then came the waiting, the panicky feeling, the anxiety, the crying--all the extra hormonal lovelies that come with pregnancy and mom-to-be worries.
I seriously felt like I was hyperventalating on Wednesday--I'm a very control oriented person. When things aren't in my control, I have a hard time waiting for the end result...the resolution--which usually turns out ok anyways.
Thank goodness for Elder Holland's talk in General Conference this last weekend!
I had heard it during the Sunday session and after our ultrasound last week, this was the main talk that just kept jumping to my mind. I finally listened to it again.
And again.
And again.
I'll probably keep listening to it--it was that meaningful to me. I've never listened to a talk that I felt was more personally applicable to me and to EXACTLY what I was worrying about and feeling uncertain about what was going to happen with this baby. It just reaffirmed to me that I need to have faith in Heavenly Father's plan, to lead with my faith as Elder Holland calls it, not with my doubt. He says not to "hyperventalate" when things get hard--they do get hard and they will continue to get hard. As I listen to this talk, I feel like he is specifically talking to ME, which is an incredible feeling. I'm so grateful to know that Heavenly Father is there and hears our prayers, even when maybe we're just worrying too much.
I'll attach a link to this talk--it's wonderful if you haven't heard it yet:
http://www.lds.org/general-conference/2013/04/lord-i-believe?lang=eng
So...thanks to this talk, and the support of wonderful women in my life--my mom, my mother-in-law, my sisters and in-laws, and Merri, Natalie, Ashley, Susan, and Katie--along with tons of other friends I can't name off the top of my head--I made it through the rest of last week and this week with minimal anxiety.
I had to put it in perspective, and just realize that God's plan for my family is already going. I can't change it by worrying too much. I am so grateful for this week and the growth I've felt in my personal testimony of how God answers our prayers and of the power of the priesthood in your home. Danny has been such a sturdy foundation and a huge support to me. He has been great at helping me to occupy my mind otherwise and of course, he's good at making me laugh. :D
I LOVE Danny, and this adorable little addition to our family!
Now for the BIG news. ;p
I just had to make everyone wait...I know.
Ultrasound as of April 17th, 2013 has revealed that:
- Baby is VERY active--quite the little rollie-pollie in there (hopefully I'll start feeling some more movement from the outside soon.... :D )
- Baby's heart, brain, hands, feet, fingers, toes, stomach, and everything else they can measure looks extremely healthy and on-track for development at this stage
- Baby weighs approximately 1/2 a pound and is measuring near 6 inches
- Baby can open HIS mouth and presumably suck on a thumb, as well as open HIS eyes
- and yes, Baby is a BOY! (threw you there didn't I)
Danny said today that he had a funny feeling that it was a boy while we were waiting for him to move into the right position to show us. :D
Definitely cool to see the face from these close-ups!
We are thrilled that this little guy is coming to our family! Grandbaby #1 for my side, and #24 for Danny's.
We look forward to finally meeting him in person, hopefully somewhere around September 12th of this year!
That's all for now folks!
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